OP, you're luckier than me.

Ever bother googling for 'child labour'?

Child abuse?

Yeah, I know how it feel. I'm 30 now and starting from scratch.


just like the book 'the last lecture say', "you can't change the card you're dealt, only how you play the hand"

listen from a guy who worked hard to buy a midi keyboard and electronic guitar and)

i) too busy work and study and no time for guitar (yet)
ii) rent area so small and cramped to space to open and set up the midi keyboard. bought a flat last month, waiting for disbursement and change of ownership.

anyway, i know how you feel. get a blog. seriously. it's a good theraphy to be able to vent yourself out. last year i went for counselling once a month - just to fix the sins of the father (and mother, and family members, and the society, etc)

and to add another note, there are aesop fable about and old man, a donkey, and his kid. the lesson is not to listen to what people say, sometimes.


and of course - the serendipity story (advisor and the king) - sometime the bad thing that happen for you is for the good in the future.

regarding this blaming thing, sometime you need to do some research. sometimes the blaming party has a good point.


just google malaysia and their flip flop english teaching policy.

there are time you are a victim of other people action, and you have the right to blame, and get angry.

OP, I don't feel sorry for you at all.

1) 22 is nothing. Everybody feels that way in college. [oh god, why am i wasting time with my major?]

2) pick some less ambitious projects. writing a game even as simple as breakout is a fairly big undertaking. Try writing an IRC bot or something.

3)

Quote: My inner soul destroyed by the society around me.

Stop listening to Linkn Park.

Quote: But I feel its too late. I'm too old now. I feel like the talent is wasted. The extreme creativity that was once there is now just mild. My inner soul destroyed by the society around me.

I kept diaries of the period I later classified as "Super-creative". Re-reading them completely broke that illusion.

My experience is that most people--myself included--went through a highly depressed period in their early twenties--I've gauged this from most of my friends and coworkers. Also, people in their early twenties seem more unhinged to me these days (And I'm twenty-four). There's something about growing up, realizing that you're part of the human race, and realizing that the other humans lied to you for most of your life, that is extremely traumatizing.

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My experience is that most people--myself included--went through a highly depressed period in their early twenties--I've gauged this from most of my friends and coworkers. Also, people in their early twenties seem more unhinged to me these days (And I'm twenty-four). There's something about growing up, realizing that you're part of the human race, and realizing that the other humans lied to you for most of your life, that is extremely traumatizing.

Have you ever read about the "Quarter-Life Crisis?"

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Quote: My inner soul destroyed by the society around me.

Stop listening to Linkn Park.

LOL

I don't know if anyone has mentioned - but a lot of places (at least in europe) you can go to Architecture school solely based on a portfolio and not on grades..

I had the same thing while looking for a job with a Technical/Associates degree. Then as a whim I decided to take the ASVAB test to see which jobs I could get in the military, and now I'm signed up for the navy and going into the Nuclear Field(Reactors on aircraft carriers/submarines)(Guaranteed NF as for which of the 3 jobs that's not).

If you're as capable as you say you should be able to score in the 90's on the ASVAB and get other ratings across the board that will make you look like a "weak" polymath. Just take a study book at the library go through a practice test and go through the study material, 12-20 or so hours of work.
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You don't need to sign any papers except for ones for basic medical/background checks to see which jobs you "could" get edit: and ASVAB testing. Since from the sounds of it you're under your own direction it can't hurt to just see.

Just remember to read ALL the papers that you sign since recruiters are essentially sales men, which automatically means they're bastards until the sale has been made.