Game design teaches the "how" of making games, but what about the "why'?
I feel nothing. I am nothing. My past is irrelevant.
I realize now that games are for the chimpanzees. Games are just about war and swinging back and forth on grapple beams.
I feel nothing masculine, nothing feminine.
I have no desire to purchase fancy cars, shoot things, build things, punch things, swing from vines, no desire to save women from monsters, no desire for competition online..
I have no desire to customize my character, gossip, wear makeup, read stories, match 3 gems, or laugh at esoteric humor, no desire for communications with randoms online.
I am neither masculine, nor feminine.
I am hermaphroditus, son of gods. I feel no past, no future. I am timeless, no personality, free from desire.
Tell me, why I should make games.