What I'm about to say may get a little long so I'm sorry in advance! ?
First of all getting high on caffeine is pretty fun, so I feel ya! (I once wrote an entire article in school about how much I loved coffee while I was high on the stuff)
But all that aside, @geofan all of us were created with God-given talents, and dreams, and if this is one of your dreams then don't be afraid to take it by the horns.
It's been my dream since I was a boy to make a game the likes of Harvest Moon or Stardew Valley.
I started that dream a month ago with 2 years of programming behind me and 0 experience in art besides middle school...
And dude if I have one thing to say it's that almost every day has been like being high on something!
You can see some of my art here on my blog, but the whole process has seemed to give an entirely new meaning to my Life!
If I may borrow the words of Mordeciah, It's like I was born for such a time as this!
Now I am the last person to understand this, because if you ask me God is supposed to give life meaning, and making a game doesn't seem like a very God-inspired dream, but if I have ever discovered a lot about God and just felt perfectly in his hands it's been during this whole process!
My main point is this. If you love something, and you have a dream, don't be afraid to chase it.
2 Years ago I couldn't have ever told you I'd have the grit to sit down for hours and make pixel art.
I'd have told you your crazy, and yet it's happening.
So all I can say dude is don't give up on your dreams. Whether it's this or something else, you were created specifically for that dream and it's a beautiful thing
God bless, and thanks to whoever was crazy enough to make it to the end of this ?