i like old photoshop too....
my barriers... jianghu and trauma, or, you, and me
the first:
every technologic industry i've participated in for the last 20 years has been extremely competitive, replete with "public perception management" agents eager to use any dirty trick to devalue the competition. the sad thing is that all the new entrants never believe you and walk into it, then five years later they're still working outside of their interests, but settled into a life of unfulfilled ambitions, with kids and a spouse so it's too late to do or change much.
the second:
twenty years of your "trial and error" method has left it's psychological shadow.. left to my own field, people celebrate me .. "amazing genius synthesizers" been said so many times... but if i ask how to use the vsk 2.4 sdk, i'm worse than pondscum.
after 20 years, there are still many facets of computing that i wouldn't know where to begin trying to find out. where do i find out how to use the vsk sdk with fclt? i don't know and i'm sure that i'll never know. year after year goes by, no one helps me, i can't help anyone. so i am happy doing my own thing (limitless until i run into an API or environment, which is "your thing" and endless cosmic suffering).
one thing i do know is that if you have spent solid years of your life trying to discern other peoples methods, it's like ramming your head into a stone mountain every day, and even if it doesn't leave a mark, whenever you see you have to start digging through someone else's crap, it can make me go a bit crosseyed.
then you read the first sentence...
what was the one i found yesterday?? this is a classic of the genre!
"Imagine you want to draw an orange. You can pick up a piece of stone and start drawing somewhere. If you draw on the floor, the next rain is likely to wipe your master piece away. If you draw on somebody's wall, you could face a law suit."
i'm unable to type after the link i posted because it becomes part of the link, so if you can parse that nonsequentially, i feel like this material does not say "i'd like to help people on the internet find out about this subject", this material says more to me "your time is not valuable, neither is your attention. you were probably focused on trying to accomplish something, but now i'd like you to focus on dying slowly under the weight of my vacuous prose".
i usually get so upset that this person disrespects the ambitions of others to deeply that i am unable to continue reading their poisonous bullcrap. petzold eg. seems particularly selected to be the "gateway" to windows becasuse of his ability to fill 1500 pages with insensibly long demo programs and asinine text.
that's from -
http://www.functionx.com/win32/Lesson10.htm