But I never had a 100% faith and for years I did not care about God or religion.
Now I believe in God because of some experiences that assured me that He exists.
Negated by the fact that I was taught that he does exist. I read religious books to my sister as a child in full faith that the words I told her were true.
Then realized that the things I was telling her did not make sense. I kept quiet about my disbelief so that I could have a fair chance to study both sides.
My only regret was that she was not as lucky as myself. I already realized that every other person would quickly try to step in and force their views onto me (I was 6 years old, so obviously aware of these kinds of psychological principals), so if I told her I would be risking everything. If she told anyone that I was seeking the truth instead of just following blind faith I would never be able to judge reality on neutral grounds.
The irony here is that her parent (guess what, she was only my step-sister, and her mother (her only parent) was not religious) never taught her religion. She learned it all from me.
So it is fairly obvious how religion spreads. I did it to my own sister. Everything she knows about religion came from me, and yet I myself never believed anything I told her (I was questioning things by the age of 4, which is when I began reading to her).
How is it not obvious to all religious people that this is exactly what happened to them?
You claim to be special. You were taught, then disbelieved, then regained faith.
Hardly. Whatever happened that caused you to regain faith would not have had the same result unless you had already been taught about religion in the first place. Firstly, no one learns about religion until taught. So no matter what your argument is it only ends up becoming religious because you were taught about religion at a young age. Nothing else. Even my 6-year-old self knew that.
You could experience any number of unexplainable coincidences, but you would never fall back on thinking it was a higher hand had you never been taught what a higher hand means. Unless you think for yourself from the start, everything you believe is just someone else’s thinking. Try to deny it.
The fact that you went back to religion simply means you never really left. Leaving religion means never going back. You simply understand enough to know that there is always a better explanation, and you are not so arrogant as to assume you know what that explanation is.
Ultimately you are nothing but a product of your upbringing, no matter how much you try to deny it.
The mental stability of children is precarious. I never really believed in God and yet I was the one who ended up making my step-sister into a devout Christian. Even to this day I could tell her it was all bullshit, and although I was the one teaching her, I knew it was wrong from the start, yet she would hold to her faith just because she was that young when I taught it to her.
You are no different. Even if the very people who taught you about God and Jesus were to turn around and tell you it was all just a joke or lie you would say to yourself, “This is just a test of my faith,” and continue living the lie.
You convince yourself that I am wrong because you believe you have special-case proof to the contrary that was apparently given only to you. Ironically, such arrogance basically condemns you to Hell.
Nothing was given to you that was not given to anyone else.
L. Spiro