Thanks for the advice guys. I've always had a "defeatist" attitude. Which is obviously not good. Something I need to get rid of entirely.

Yeah, the attitude is equally important as the rest. You need to believe in yourself.

For the non typical answer. I want to bring some variety back into the game business. The oversaturation of FPS, and the companies bs way of screwing people out of full games, making them buy DLC make me cringe.

Just a bit. I think you are making some very bad assumptions here.

1. That the market is oversaturated with fps's. This year especially, I don't find that to be the case. In general though, I think it's more oversaturation of mediocre action games rather than it being a problem with fps's. If there were 200 GREAT fps's released in one year, I wouldn't really have a problem with it as long as they were great. Though this is somewhat typical in a lot of entertainment industries; movies, books, music, etc.

2. That companies are trying to provide less content so they can monetize more. I think if you get a chance to talk to the actual creators, you'll realize most monetization exists so we can provide more content to users not less.

what counts is what you do when you get up after your coffee/the/juice/soft drink etc. Just program because you love it and then the rest will come.

I use to think like you until I took course in programming at a University and realized that I was pretty fine at it.

Perhaps you spend too much time alone and not with like minded people?

Ah, also learning slowly is fine if it(the knowledge) sticks to your mind

On logic, have you considerred taking a logic course/learning logic? It's a pretty awesome field and a lot of people don't realize that you can learn it on it's own; they expect to learn it as they learn other related things. I'd really recommend taking an intro to symbollic logic or similar type course for anybody. It totally changes the way you view arguments, and probably sold me on computer science before I was interested in computer science.

The best artist I've ever met does a 4 hour crash course every day. As for programming, Wouter Van (the creator of sauerbraten) does the coding in 4 hour blocks. Learn gameplay programming, NOT engine programming. Try Unity3d. Get Legos, K'nex, and some brain teasers.

Also, take advice from experts (not me), and learn how the brain works. The brain works by sorting things as you sleep, so if you program and do art every single day you will advance much quicker than if you contribute a few days a week. Hack or do art immediately before you go to bed. Me, I can't draw, never could, but i can write. I'm going to try to fix a graphical novel someone else made and trade him prose for concept art. In addition to providing him with a completely new story that's a lot better than anything he currently has and targeted to the genre he wants... all for nothing but repeating, continuing, (not a lot, but enough that over the course of a month I might get a set of 8 character sketches) concept art. Keep in mind, though, that I'm very close to a verbal genius and I live in the genre he writes for.